Saying Goodbye

Well It Seems As Though My Blogging Has Come To An End. I Wanted To Give You Guys At Least One More Post But I'm Just Not Into It Anymore. I Wanna Thank My Loyal Readers For Continuing To Read During My Rough Patches And Always Supporting Me. I'm Stopping Due To Lack Of Feedback, And Lack Of Interest. But I Do Suggest You Read Tati And Anitra's Blog. Kyesha And Kelsey's Blog. Also Jessica's Blog. They Have Wonderful Blogs. But That's It For Me. Adios Blogging World! It Was A Good Run. 

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We waited for about thirty minutes for the doctor to come out. I couldn't stop crying, I just wanted my baby to be okay. If anything happened to her, I don't know what I would do. We prayed a few times and then the doctor came out.

"Mr. And Mrs. Carter?" We jumped up and walked to him.

"Doctor! Is Blue Okay?"

"She's fine. Have a seat, Mr. And Mrs. Carter." We sat down at the table.

"Ma'am, Blue has what we call Bronchitis.."

"Isn't that like asthma?" Shawn asked.

"Not quite. Normally, it's simply a cold that can range at different levels of severity: mild to severe breathlessness. In infants as Blue, its caused by viral infections. Infants suffering with bacterial pneumonia also display such symptoms. If not treated properly immediately bronchitis can also be fatal in infants and young children."

(Tuh! I'm Schooling Y'all Lmao)

I covered my mouth when he said fatal.

"But don't worry Mrs. Carter. We've taken good care of her. She's perfectly fine now."

"Is there anything we can do at home to make sure this doesn't happen again?"

"Yes actually, I'm gonna prescribe her a medicine that will make breathing easier for her. That BTW is the reason why she was sweating. It was a struggle for her to breathe. But this medicine should help. Also, you have to give it to her on a breathing machine. She may not like it at first but it'll be worth it."

I didn't know what to say. This was all so much to take in. The doctor was writing the prescription on his notepad and I just watched him.

"Thank you so much Doc."

"No prob. I'll call your prescription in so it'll Be ready in the morning."

"Alright man, thanks." The doctor walked away.

I sat there, teary eyed, staring into space. My baby, three months old, is in the hospital. I know it's not anyone's fault but for some reason, I feel like I'm to blame. I started to cry.

"B, baby, stop crying. He said babygirl would be just fine."

"I know but this is all just too much."

"I know, baby we'll get through it. Don't worry. C'mon, lets Go see her."

He helped me up out of the chair, wrapped his arm around me and held me as we walked to Blue's room. I heard her crying, and trust, I know my baby's cry. We walked in and the nurse was trying to stop her from crying. I walked up and the nurse passed her to me.

"It's okay baby, mommy's here. Shhhh" I rocked her and she settled down. "Shhh, that's momma's good girl."

She stopped crying and I kinda listened to how she was breathing. It had kind of a whistle to it. That was one of the symptoms of bronchitis. She was also wheezing a little. That broke my heart. My baby, my heart, was sick and there wasn't too much I can do about it. Shawn came and wiped the few tears I had let fall. He hugged me then kissed me and Blue. We waited for the nurse to come back with the discharge papers and we went home.

The next day was Ok. Me and Shawn spent the entire day with Blue. We didn't let her out our sight for a moment. She slept with us, ate with us, everything. Kelly, Ty, Angie and Chelle stopped by to check on us.

"Girl, what have you been feeding my baby? She's getting so big" Kelly said while bouncing Blue on her knee.

"I know, I don't know why she's getting so big, so fast. Taking after her daddy." I giggled.

"Better me than you!" Shawn butted in.

"And what's that supposed to mean?"

"Cmon B, you know you were a weird child." He laughed.

"Oh, don't get me started on you ten pounds. Half of that ten pounds was your big ass head" I laughed.

"Hey, language around my lil diva." Ty covered Blue's ears. Angie came in from the kitchen.

"Hey B, Come here for a sec."
"Your lucky, bighead. I'm not done with you." I laughed and got up from the floor.

"Mhmm I'll be here when you get back" He laughed and I walked in the kitchen.

"Wassup?"

"I have a question"

"Yeah?"

"You talked to Michael lately?"

"Michael?" I said walking to the fridge to grab a bottle of water.

"Yeah, Ealy."

"Nah, not recently, why?"

"He emailed. Apparently, he wants you to come to his new movie premiere."

"As like a date?"

"I don't know but he left his new number. You should call him."

I was kinda shocked. Me and Michael were good friends a while back. Before me and Shawn got as serious as we did, then we just kinda stopped talking. Shawn didn't want me talking to him anyways. He thought Michael wanted me which I doubt. We were just really cool friends. I do kinda miss him.

"Okay, I'll call him later." I said as we walked back in the front room.

"B! Your child is a mess and a half." Chelle said laughing.

"What? What Did She Do?!"
"She's lying here, pretending like She's asleep."

"Peeking through one eye?" I asked curiously.

"Yes!!" Ty said. "I walked up and she hurried and closed her eyes."

"Aww She does that. I don't know where she got that from." I said giggling.

"She is hilarious. And what's with her stealing my food? Knocked my ice cream right out my hand!"

"She gets that from her mom." Shawn eyed me.

"Hey, y'all better leave my baby alone." I laughed. "Maybe you had too much, TY!"

"OH, But bitch hold on!" Blue started to cry.

"You made her cry. Aww baby, Uncle TyTy did it?" I Picked her up and held her in Ty's face. "Tell him leave you alone!"

She reached out and grabbed his lips. She pulled and I cracked up. Ty got to yelling. I know that hurt, Blue is strong and she got some nails on her. Lol I pulled her back and she let go.
"Now say sorry Ty!"

"Dang, Sorry lil Sasha! Mean self!" He said holding his lip. Blue was cracking up. My baby don't play!

A few hours passed, And everyone left. I kept thinking about calling Michael but I don't know what to say. We haven't spoken to each other in years but I figured I'd give it a shot. I called him while I was taking my bubble bath.

"Bee, I miss you. We have to hang out sometimes."

"I know. I miss you too. And you have to come and see Blue. She's getting so big."

"How about this weekend? I can take you and Blue out for some pizza or something." Pizza though?

"That's so corny." I laughed, "But I would like that. We've got catching up to do."

"Ok so, Saturday around 5 is good? I'll pick you up"

"Yes, that's great. See you then."

As we hung up, I felt some type of way. Do I have long lost feelings for him? Lord, I hope not. I just lied back in the tub relaxing, not thinking about anything anymore. When I got out, I put on one of Jay's old Jerseys and went to go lay down with him. He had already put Blue down for bed so we cuddled up under each other.

"B?"
"Yes?"
"I love you"
"i love you more baby"

I turned over and pecked him on the lips a few times. That soon led to a very passionate kiss. He climbed on top of me and caressed my thighs. He reached into my panties and rubbed my clit. I had no choice but to moan in his mouth. I pulled off his T-shirt and wrapped my arms around his neck. In the midst of our kisses, he managed to get my panties and my shirt off. I was just in my bra. He stopped kissing me and just stared into my eyes. And there it was. That connection I haven't felt in months. I missed his touch so much.

"Baby, make love to me."

"I intend to" He smirked and kissed me.

I kicked down his boxers with my feet so there was nothing ruining this feeling. He rubbed his dick up and down my pussy lips and I was already going crazy. He started to push himself in but I was too tight. After all, we hadn't had sex in months. He moved down and lapped away at my pussy. He was reaching spots I didn't even know I had. He fucked me so good with his tongue I couldn't help myself. I screamed and moaned his name so damn loud. He reached up to caress my breasts. I gripped the sheets between my fingers and arched my back to a maximum.

"Oh my.. mhmmm baby, baby I'm.. mmm I'm cumming!"

I came and he continued to eat. My legs were getting weak and I could hardly hold them up. I put my hand on his head and tried to close my legs. I guess he figured I had enough and he kissed back up to my face. He tried to push himself into me again. When he got the head in, I gasped so hard. It was like I was a virgin again. It's been so long but it felt so amazing. A tear fell from my eye and he kissed it away as he pushed himself further into me. I closed my eyes tight as he slowly pumped in and out of me. I started to loosen up and meet his thrusts. He started to go faster and I swear I felt him in my gut.

"Ohh baby, right there. Ahhh shit baby!" I moaned rubbing his chest.

He pumped faster and I was reaching my peak. I started to scratch his back and he knew what that meant. He pinned my arms above my head and fucked me like his life depended on it. I could only manage to scream his name. Nothing else would come out.

"Cum for daddy baby." He sucked on my neck. "Cum on daddy's dick"

The more he talked dirty the more aroused I became. My eyes rolled to the back ofy head. I came so hard and the way he was grunting, so did he. We made love for hours on in. It went from passionate, to rough. He fucked me on the floor, the wall, the dresser, the sink in our bathroom, and in the chair in our room. We did it missionary, doggy, in the sponging position. Hell , every position you could think of. We stopped around 4am. I was riding him.

"Ahh shit B, just like that." He smacked my ass.

"Mmm Shit, cum for momma. Mmm yes baby. I want you to cum on me. I wanna feel it. Mmm" I said while furiously rubbing my clit.

He sat up and pumped his life away. Then he flipped me over on my back and came on my stomach and chest. He fell on the wet bed next to me. Then he passed me the towel on the nightstand. I wiped my self off and managed to pull myself to lay on his chest.

"Baby --"
"Shh, I know." He kissed me. "I love you"

"I love you too."

And with that, nothing else was said. We just dozed off and waited for babygirl to wake up.



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Dinner Date And A Disaster

The next couple of days has just been Blue, Shawn and myself. No phones, no internet, just us spending quality time together. This is how I like it. Drama free!! I'm learning so much more about my family. I've even learned to cook. Like seriously, I can cook a three course meal now. I'm so proud of myself. Last night, so made baked chicken, mashed potatoes and biscuits. Shawn said it was delicious, and He didn't lie. He looked me in my face this time. I'm happy!! :-D

Anyways Blue is three months today and she's getting so big. Her hair is getting so long. Her legs are getting even longer. The other day I was tickling her and she kicked the shit out of my chest. It hurt like hell. And she's so chubby. This girl tries to eat table food and everything.

"No Blue, you can't eat this." She kept reaching for my chicken. "Blue, no"

No matter how many times I said no, she just kept reaching. So I tried something. I took a bite out of my chicken and kissed her on the lips. She made a funny face then giggled. I laughed.

"Your first taste of chicken, how was it?" She was sucking on her fingers. "I'll take that as a 'good mommy'" I giggled.

Shawn walked inside and grabbed me by the waist. By then, Blue was in her swing.

"Hello my beautiful wife." He kissed me on the neck.

"Hello my handsome husband" I giggled.

"Whatchu doing? I know you ain't make chicken without making me some!"
He was still holding on to my waist.

"No babe, yours is on the plate in the fridge."

"Good, I ain't wanna have to beat you up" that made me laugh.

"Shawn, you ain't gonna beat nothing up. Oh, how's your chest feeling?"

"It's much better. Maybe now we can have our honeymoon." He kissed my neck.

Because of what happened, me and Shawn have not had our honeymoon. Hell we hadn't even had sex. I know it's past the mark for us too but I don't want anything to happen. Which is why I'm waiting until he's completely healed.

"I would like that." I turned around and kissed him.

"Good, call Ma to watch Babygirl. I'm taking you out." My heart skipped a beat. We haven't been out on a date in ages.

"Ok, And out where?"

"Wait and see" He started to walk away.

"Baby, you know I hate surprises" I shouted.

By then he was gone and he took Ladybug with him. I kept thinking about what he had up his sleeve. I hate surprises but his never failed me so I guess I'll have to wait.

"Hello"
"Hey Ma!" I said happily. I haven't talked to my mom in like a week and a half.

"Hey baby. How you doing?"

"I'm great, What about you?"

"I'm good. How's my Son-in-Law and grandbaby?"

"They're fine. That's kinda what I called about."

"Something Wrong?"

"No, No, No. Me And Shawn wanted to go out tonight. You know with everything going on, me and him haven't hardly spent anytime alone. So could you keep Blue tonight? Just for a little while --" She cut me off.

"Chilee, If you don't stop talking to me like I'm new to this. That is my grandbaby, just drop her off. And I'll keep her for the night. I don't want her hearing you. You know you're loud." That was so embarrassing.

"Maaaaaaaaa!!!!"

"Chile, don't "Ma" me. Like I never heard you. Just call before you bring her."

"Ugh, okay Ma, love you"
"Love you too baby"

As I hung up, Shawn walked in holding Blue like she was a basketball.

"Baby? Why babygirl smell like chicken grease?" I laughed so hard.

"What?"

"She was trying to get my chicken so I bit it and kissed her." He laughed.
"Really B?"

I Laughed. "What?"

"You not about to have my baby hooked on chicken."

"Ok, Well she practically asked for it." I laughed and he put her on my lap. I lifted her up over my face.

"You liked it didn't you? Didn't you baby?"

She was giggling and she drooled all over my face.

"That's what you get!"

"Ew Blue" I laughed hella hard.
Idk why I always do that knowing it would happen. I got up to clean off my face.

"Oh, baby, Ma said she'll keep Blue for the night. So we can have it to ourselves." I smiled and walked over to him.

"Great, now you go get ready. I'll dress Blue and take her to ma's. Be ready when I get back."

"But you're not even dressed."

"I'm gonna stop somewhere and get dressed. You just be ready." He got up and kissed me. When I got up and walked to the room he slapped my ass.

"Oop. You better stop before You start something!"

"Oh, I'm gonna start something alright. I'ma finish it too!" I giggled.
"Bye!"

A few hours passed and I was almost ready. I had on a sexy LBD (Little Black Dress) that stopped at the mid-thigh. My hair was in flowing curls, and I had on a sexy pair of red pumps. I was touching up my make up when I heard the front door close. I finished my gloss and stood up in front of the body mirror. I was fixing my dress when Shawn walked in. His mouth dropped.

"It's too much isn't it?"

"No, No, you look beautiful." I blushed.

"You look very handsome yourself." He had on some slacks with a light pink shirt. He looked so good I wanted to just jump on him.

"You ready?"

"Yes, I grabbed my shaw and he lead me to the car. Julius opened the car doors and drove us to our destination. My mouth dropped when I saw the marquee.

"Cote d'Azue??? Aww this is where we had our --"

"First date. I know. I thought it would Be special if we had our first date here again, as a married couple" He flashed a smile while Julius let us out the car.

We walked into the restaurant and it was completely empty. Turns out, Shawn rented out the whole place. He can be so damn cute when he wants to be. We were seated in a booth and I sat right next to him. The waiter came and took our order.

"I'll have the lobster with lots of butter and a Cesar salad on the side."

"And for the lady?"

"I'll have the--"

"She'll have the Basian baked chicken with a small baked potato on the side" How the he'll did he know what I wanted?

"Ok, coming right up sir"
The waiter walked away and I looked at Shawn.

"How'd you know what I wanted?"

"What can I say? I know my wife"

I just smiled and stared at him. We got our food and we were just chatting away about Blue, our crazy family, what happened and somehow, we talked about our first time. I was getting a bit turned on so I reached under the table and rubbed his dick through his pants. He was moaning in my ear As I kissed his neck. I reached inside his pants and stroked him under the table.

"Baby, let's go home." I whispered in his ear while still stroking.

He jumped up, left $300 dollars on the table and pulled me to the car. In the car on the way home, we couldn't stay off of each other. The moment we got home, we hit the floor. Shawn was on top of me kissing my neck while I was pulling off his clothes. He lifted up the bottom of my dress and caressed my thighs.

"Mmm, baby. I need you" I said while breaking our kiss. He looked me in my eyes then kissed my lips softly. By now he had pulled off my dress and I was in my lingerie, as he was in his boxers. He kissed my neck moving down to my belly. Once he got to my pussy, I was breathless. He was doing laps around my clit and then my phone started to ring.
"Baby, don't stop." He kept eating. I answered the phone.

"Hello" Shawn did something with his tongue and I damn near screamed into the phone.
"Baby?"
"Yes Ma? I'm a little.. " I gasped "busy right now"
"Baby, It's Blue! She's breathing really hard and heavy" I grabbed Jay's head and stopped him.
"Blue? Is she Ok? Oh my God, tell me she's okay!"
"I don't know. I'm taking her to the hospital now. Meet us there."
Oh my -- we're on our way."

"What's wrong with Blue?"

"I don't know. Jay get dressed, we gotta get to the hospital!"

We got dressed As fast as we could and raced to the hospital. When we got there, I saw momma in the waiting room, crying.

"Ma, what happened? Where's Blue?"

"She's in the back. Idk what happened. She was fine when I fed her. Then she started wheezing and coughing. And she was breathing heavy and sweating."
"Oh my God, my baby."
I didn't know what to do, I just started crying. Jay held me close and I just cried in his chest. What else could possibly go wrong in my life????



To be continued


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SNEAK PREVIEW!!!

We were having a wonderful evening. In the car on the way home, we couldn't stay off of each other. The moment we got home, we hit the floor. Shawn was on top of me kissing my neck while I was pulling off his clothes. He lifted up the bottom of my dress and caressed my thighs.

"Mmm, baby. I need you" I said while breaking our kiss. He looked me in my eyes then kissed my lips softly. By now he had pulled off my dress and I was in my lingerie, as he was in his boxers. He kissed my neck moving down to my belly. Once he got to my pussy, I was breathless. He was doing laps around my clit and then my phone started to ring.
"Baby, don't stop." He kept eating. I answered the phone.

"Hello" Shawn did something with his tongue and I damn near screamed into the phone.
"Baby?"
"Yes Ma? I'm a little.. " I gasped "busy right now"
"Baby, It's Blue! She's breathing really hard and heavy" I grabbed Jay's head and stopped him.
"Blue? Is she Ok? Oh my God, tell me she's okay!"

















END OF PREVIEW!

A Moment Of Peace

He tried to scoot up but he was obviously in pain so I helped him. He sighed.

He kinda struggled to speak.
"Remember when I left the house? And told you And Rih to stay home."
"Yeah"
"Well I was going to see what Chris did to her cause you know I'm not with that 'hit your woman' shit. I was on my way when I stopped at the store. Some nigga tried to rob me and steal the Maybach. You know I keep the A.K. on my hip so I pulled it up and held it to his head. Idk what happened but a man came from behind and shot me twice. No one was out and I was only a few blocks from the house so I struggled home and that's when I got to you."
My eyes were watering. I was mad, angry and sad.
"It's okay baby. You can stop. I can't believe this happened to you. Did you see any one of their faces?"

"Nah it was dark. I just saw it was two of them."
It was silent for a moment.
"I'm sorry."

"For what? This isn't your fault. You can't control this."

"I know but, I wish there was something I can do."

He tried to scoot up a little and he grabbed my hand.

"You're here with me and that's enough. Things like this you can't help but your trying and that's enough for me. Now gimme a kiss"

I kissed him and he leaned up and groaned. Aww I don't like to see my baby in pain.

"Are you okay baby?"

"*grunts* Yeah, I'm okay."
The doctor then walked in...

"Ahh, Mr. Carter. I see you're with us again. How are you feeling?"

"I'd be feeling much better if I wasn't laying in this bed."

"I understand, well, let me check your vitals and see how your doing."

The doctor checked and and wrote some stuff down.

"Well Mr. Carter, you're doing pretty good. Your vitals are good. Are you in a lot of pain?"

"Naw, not really."

"That's good. You can be out of here by tomorrow if you keep doing good like this."

I cut in.
"Um, doctor? How long would it take for him to heal?"

"Well in his case, not long. The bullets didn't break any bones and we got the bullets out in time. Seeing how well he's doing already, healing will take about 4 weeks and after he'll have to do about 4-6 weeks of physical therapy to fully recover."

That's not bad at all.

"Wow, I thought it would be worse."

"If you didn't get here when you did, it could have been much worse."

He looked at his paper then his pager.

"You be careful now Mr. Carter, I'll be back to check on you later."

"Okay Thanks a lot."

He said "it's my job" and walked out the door. You don't know how happy I am to know my baby is doing fine and can be home by tomorrow. I Walked back up to Shawn and tongued him down. When I pulled back, his face was like "O_o"

"Baby, what was that for?"

"Make-up from when I couldn't kiss you last night and this morning" I smiled and pulled out my phone to call my mom. She better not hang up on me.

"Ma! How's Blue?"
"Girl if you call me one more time. She is still asleep Beyonce. As she was when you called thirty minutes ago"

"Dang, sorry. I just wanna know how she's doing."

"I understand that. How's my son-in-law?"

"Why don't you ask yourself" I held the phone to Shawn's ear.

"Hey ma."

"Oh baby, thank God you're okay. I knew you would come around. You're a strong boy. How you feeling?"

"I'm in a little pain but the doctor said I can be outta here by tomorrow."

"So soon. That is so good. God is good"

"All the time. Yes he is" I laughed. My mom is FOREVER saying that.
Right with Michelle's ass.

"Is that Blue crying?"

"Blue's crying? What? Why?"

"Bey calm down. She said She just woke up."

"Oh, okay"

"Ma we're gonna call you back. Ok? Love you"

"I love you too baby"

He gave me back the phone and tried to get up.

"Baby, what are you doing?"

"I have to pee" He struggled to get up.

"Okay well let me help you" I grabbed his waist and his arm.

"You gone help me pee? You gone hold my dick for me?" He laughed.

"Mhmm, I'm gonna hold something else for you too if you don't cut it out." I giggled. "Now come on. Does it hurt to walk?"

"Nah, I'm just weak right now." I helped him to the restroom and had to hold his big ass up to pee. He was on hard and I was in shock. He was just damn near in a coma but now he's hard as bricks. Lemme find out he was having wet dreams while I was thinking he was in a coma. I laughed at the thought.

"What's so funny?"
I pointed down.
"How are you on hard Jay?"
I giggled some more.

"You know what? maybe it was that actress I was dreaming about."

I stopped laughing.

"Nigga don't play."

"I'm serious. What's her name? Uhhh, She played Deena Jones." He mocked my voice. "One of the Dreamettes!" I cracked up!

"Jay that was so gay!!" I couldn't stop laughing. It was so good seeing him still joke around even in his situation. He always know how to make a bad situation bright. I lied in the bed next to him and held him.

"I love you Giselle."
"I love you more Corey"
I looked up and kissed him.



(A Month And ½ later)
Everything is perfect. Jay is healing very well. And Blue is getting so big. And this little girl is hilarious.

"Bahbahbahlala"

"Daddy did What??"

"bahbahbahlalala"

"Auntie Solo too?!"

"Bahabahbahbah *screams*"

"Uh Uhn, I can't have them messing with my baby. Hold on, who taught you to scream on key?" She giggled.

"Mhmm you trying to be like mommy huh?" I laughed. She looked up and me and smiled really big.

"What are you smiling so hard for?" I Picked her up off the bed and held her up. I started speaking in baby talk.

"Whyshusmilinsohard? Huh?" She looked at me weird and scrunched her face up. Oh God, I know what that means. I sniffed and got a wiff of what good looking was really cooking.

"OMG Blue! Baby what have I been feeding you? Good lawd!" I picked her up and put her on the changing station. She hates this bed so much. She started crying.

"I know, I know, just onnnnne minute." I opened her diaper.
"Oh my Gawd, JAAAAAAYYYYYYY!!!"
He came in fast. Then he sniffed the air.

"Oh my damn. Bey what the hell you been feeding her??"

"Whatever, Come here. Look!"

"Uh Uhn. If it looks as bad As it smells, hell no."

"But look. It's all up her back."

"Bey what the hell? Go clean it off."

I was in shock. It was literally all up her back. Like she was playing in it. Changing diapers was my thing but this is disgusting. I picked her up, took her clothes off and put her in the baby tub Kelly bought her. I didn't wanna use it cause it's too beautiful but Blue hates the other three. I bathed Blue while singing "the bathing song" then wrapped her up in the towel. When I put her on the bed and dried her off, I blew on her tummy. She cracks up when I do that. I blew again and she got to kicking. I stopped cause she was kicking the hell outta my chest. I just laughed, oiled her up and put her on a cute purple onesie that Ellen got her. It says "All the single babies"
This is too cute on her.

"Now mommy's baby is all clean. Yes she is!" She rubbed her eyes and yawned.

"Aww you're sleepy? I thought you were gonna stay up with mommy and daddy?"
She started crying. I guess not.

"Jaaay!"

"Baby why you always yelling?" He said coming into the room.

"Cause I never know where you are in this big house. Baby, can you go heat up a bottle for me?"

"I Gotchu"

He left and can back five minutes later.

"Jay, that bottle is not warm enough."

"How you gonna tell me? Yes it is"

I gave him a look.

"Let me see" I tested it. "Jay what did you do to this?"

He looked dumbfounded.
"What do you mean? I warmed it up."

"Is this from the Blue pitcher?"

"Yeah" He was lying.

"Really? So why is this not my breast milk?"
He looked like O_o

"Jay, baby, you can't rush with this. Blue needs breast milk. You don't want your babygirl sick, do you?"

"Of course not baby. I'm sorry. I'll be right back."

Lord, what am I gonna do with this man. I rocked Blue until Jay came with the bottle. He lied next to me while I fed and rocked ladybug to sleep. After I put her in her crib me and just cuddled and watched a few movies together. Finally, a moment of peace.



TO BE CONTINUED

Awakening

OH MY GOD!!


Thank GOD he's going to be okay. The doctor said he lost a lot of blood but they managed to stop it before it got worse. I just wanna know what happened. It all happened so fast. Too much is going on right now. We just got married and had a baby, then Chris and Rihanna... Wait, CHRIS!!! He probably did this. I will kill that little boy if I find out he's responsible for this shit!

"Can I see him?"

"You can but he still hasn't awaken from surgery but you can see him, follow me."

Me and Rihanna followed the doctor to room J-69. My heart dropped to my feet when I got to the door. I can't do this. I stopped in my tracks. I basically froze.

"C'mon Bey"

"I can't do this. I can't see him like this. I can't take it"

"Bey do this for Jay. You have to stay strong for him. Let your face be the first thing he sees when he opens his eyes."

She was right. I slowly walked into the room. I heard beeping and heavy breathing. My eyes watered. I looked up and saw a million tubes connected to Jay and I broke down. He looked so helpless. I walked to the bed and grabbed his hand.

"Jay, baby? *Sniff* How did I let you get yourself into this? Baby, do me a favor and wake up. I need you. Blue needs you. I can't see my life without you. Please baby." I started to cry harder.

"Please, open your eyes for me baby."

I squeezed his hand and kissed him. Rihanna walked up behind me and rubbed my back.

"It's gonna be okay, Bey"

"No It's not!! Look at him! He's basically laying here lifeless and you tell me everything is okay. It's not!!" I cried harder.

Rih hugged me and pulled up a chair next to the bed for me. We stayed in his room for hours. Six to be exact and Shawn still hadn't awakened. I had just woken up from the bright sun shining in my face. I looked around and saw Rihanna spread out on three chairs asleep. Shawn was still in the same position. I felt vibrations coming from my jacket pocket. It was my mom calling.

"Hello?"

"Baby, are you okay? What happened to Jay? What's going on?"

"Mom, calm down. I'm fine."

"What about Jay? Rihanna said he was bleeding everywhere and just dropped Blue off. What's going on?"

"Look Ma, I'm coming over there to shower and get Blue. I'll explain everything when I get there.Okay?"

"Okay baby, be careful. I love you"

"Okay ma, I love you too."

I woke Rih up and told her we were going to my mom's house. She said Ok and grabbed her bag. I walked up to Shawn and grabbed his hand.

"Baby, I'll be back later with Blue. It will be nice to see you awake when I get back. I love you." I kissed his forehead and we left.



(Mom's House)
"ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?!?!"

I was breastfeeding Blue when I told Solo and my mom what happened.

"Shhh Ma, yes I'm serious. I just hope he is awake. The doctor said nothing about a coma."

"Well that's what it seems like. But Jay is a strong man. I think he'll be fine."

I looked down and caressed Blue's full head of hair. God, she looks so much like Jay.

"Wanna go see daddy? Huh?"

"You sure that's a good idea taking Blue?" Solo said getting up from the table.

"Why not?"

"Cause she's a newborn baby. Why don't you just pump some milk and leave her here? She doesn't need to be in the midst of that. What if something happens at the hospital?"

"Solange is right, I'll be damned if something happens to my grandbaby."

"Y'all are right. We she's sleep now, so I'm gonna pump a few bottles and head back to Jay. That's okay?"

"Of course, now gimme my niece." Solo picked Blue up and walked to the couch. I pumped about five bottles which would be more than enough until I got back. Rih was sitting on the couch with Solo rubbing Blue's head.

"Rih, you coming?"

"Nah, you go. I'll stay here and finish talking to Solo and Miss Tina."

"You sure?" I was kinda surprised Solo was talking to Rih. A few months ago, she didn't even know who Rihanna was.

"Yeah, I'm sure. You and Jay should be alone anyways."

"Okay. I'll be back In a little while. Love y'all."

"Love you too Bey."



(At The Hospital)

I've been here talking to Jay for about an hour now. He still hasn't woken up. I called and checked on Blue like every twenty minutes. My mom must have gotten mad cause she hung up on me the last time. Excuse me for wanting to see if my child was Ok. Another hour passed and I was getting tired. I started to get up when I felt him squeeze my hand.

"Jay?"

He groaned a little.

"Jay!! Oh my God!!" I hugged him super tight and then he groaned and moaned loudly. I guess I hurt him.

"Oh, I'm sorry I'm just so happy to have you awake." I kissed all over his face and hands.

"B..Bey?"

"Yes baby?!"

"How long have I been here?"

"Since last night. You been out of it babe."

"You been here the whole time?"

"Yes, minus about and hour and a half. I had to shower and feed Blue."
"She okay?"

"Yes, she's with momma, Solo And Rihanna."

"Oh, Okay"

"Now baby can you please tell me how you got in this situation?"
He tried to scoot up but he was obviously in pain so I helped him. He sighed.

















TO BE CONTINUED.